{{Pause=2}} CHAPTER 17 {{PAUSE=1}}Changes Overcome Me {{Pause=2}} [The following notes are from Diary pages for March 1979.] Absorbed in my thoughts I had not realized that all around me had come to a stop. Escaping from my reality is when I can remember what Lya had told me days before, I shiver not only to remember, but to simply pronounce her name, to know that she, at some point in this vast Universe has found the answer for her presence in this world. I looked toward the window and I noticed that it had become dark outside. It was already late. At this point in the infinite in which I had touched life clouds had gathered and were forming immense cumulus masses that undulated violently, sketching fantastic configurations in the blue sky. I watched it rain and was moved by the fury with which the drops of water lashed the window. Lya had given me an incalculable inheritance: she had taught me to love my world with all and what I encountered today revolted me. But there was something very important about this. I had changed too, not only at the emotional level, but at a psychic level as well... Where was it that I got this? I had considered the conversations that I had obtained with Lya and the slow but inexorable change in me a great deal, which at times I did not myself comprehend. My conduct had changed, sensitizing me to a high degree, but this I did not ask for, nor did I solicit any change. No, this did not come in any rapid manner. It was slow, like sparks of metamorphosis. These changes at first were spaced out until each time they came more frequently. My mind had expanded, and my power of concentration had become sharpened. I could perceive any sound in great detail, and surprisingly, could repeat such any time I desired, and analyze it completely including it's musical derivations, if it had any. All for me now had no beginning nor end, nor rise nor decline. It is as if each point In my imagination suffers thousands and thousands of changes. My thoughts separate into interesting concepts. All that occurs to me is subjected to profound analysis by me. I am sure that because of my encounters with Lya all in my life has suffered a transformation. My mind has been modified. It is as if I am living within a cortex where all has great reason for being. For example, If I think on the word "mind", this same thought stimulates my imagination, and my capacity to discern comes to me immediately. Then I "see" a brain... thousands of concepts recorded in it and a movement induced through the same thought like energy in vortice which generates these stimulus. The same word suffers a distortion far beyond my knowledge of it, far beyond the explanation for this word found in a dictionary. I had asked myself many times if in this manner the human being could utilize a greater percentage of his capacity for concentration and learning, surpassing the normal levels in any individual. This situation, or mental state, is that which I had opted to call "Power of infinite concentration" - for lack of any other concept - and moreover. Still from previous knowledge concerning this phenomenon, had brought really an indescribable change to my life. For example, if I perceived a determined aroma, let us say of a flower, to my mind would come innumerable ideas of landscapes where such a flower could have originated. I would think of its origins, from the unicellular beginning of the seed to the single representation of color and previously registered in it's respective seed. I would immediately know it's possibilities of duration, then perceive a succession of ideas about how to plant and grow them, in what parts of the world, resistance to climate, it's industrialization, medicinal as well as for food, it's possibilities for grafting and for sprouting. Finally it's formula and then it's preservation. All this without reading about it in any other place. Lya had explained to me how only one page could contain hundreds of formulas according to their own characteristics. Well then, it is as if I myself have been converted into a computerized being to an undefined level. Now let us apply this to my personal life. For example, when I see a man, whatever his ancestry might be, I perceive various characteristics, his extraordinary ones - levels of vibrational frequency, his origins, His blood-chemistry composition and other questions. On the other hand there comes to my mind the origin of the DNA and the gene from which he descended, and I can know if he descended then from a mixed or a pure race, how many generations have passed before him to his present state, from that obtaining his hereditary character and from when as well as his physical characteristics. If I meet a man of the negro or Japanese race, (We consider both of those pure races) upon taking his hand I can perceive his vibratory waves more or less acutely - depending on the biological-chemical combinations of his genetic make-up - and other traits which for questions of reproduction have been modified. I can compare him with others which have been mixed and with various races that emit various frequencies. These two races have a characteristic odor and their glands are different from those of the white or copper races. I can perceive his spiritual state by means of his stimulus and know then his tendencies and the nature of his thoughts. Lya told me one time: "You will someday understand my form of being and of thought, because you yourself will experience something much like what occurs with me, and that what for me is normal for you is incomprehensible." For that, when I experience all the situations that I have narrated, you will come to the conclusion that on the planet of Lya such phenomena could also occur, and that it is very possible that she possesses characteristics perhaps more sharp and elevated than that which I experience. One time Lya had said to me: "If you could listen... you would be delighted with the beautiful sound of your Universe itself." Little by little I began to understand the quality of her development to that level of mental perception and me it seemed a formidable portent, it convinced me one more time that the human race, a valuable representative element of his existence, had lost this marvelous ability in some lamentable form. For me, to experience this was to reach the stars with my hands... But what could I do with this in a world like ours? Could I do something when I perceived that some human being suffered intensely with his health? Could I avoid a continental level of confrontation? No... Then I remembered that as a human being I could be, through this sensitivity recently acquired, an easily vulnerable being. {{PAUSE=2}}